16/07/08 05:08 [Wednesday]
I have woken up feeling inclined towards paranoia, almost certainly as a result of being invited through hypnotic voicing to be paranoid than from any confusion in my mind. The paranoia fixed on the USB lead connected from the Velleman device in the safe adjacent to the DIXONSXP computer. I thought for a minute or two that it was not connected, but I am mistaken: the disconnected lead is a lead which had been connected overnight the night between Monday and Tuesday to an Olympus audio device covering the passage, just outside our bedroom in fact, while the lead from the Velleman safe is in place as it should be.
If the latter lead had been unconnected I did not see how the file I have called USBExperimentFile(16-Jul-08).txt could have been created with seemingly (and in fact) such proper self-consistent data in it. The file USBExperimentFile(15-Jul-08).txt, on the other hand, has strange data in it and I cannot see any way that file has not been falsified. From what I can make out this must have been done through rendering us unconscious (or equivalently, inducing amnesia covering this period) - presumably through hypnosis - yesterday evening on our return from Stourbridge police station. Just possibly I went out and Dawn was distracted in some way and the front door left open, immediately on our return: but I can’t genuinely believe we were not taken advantage of in the way I mentioned, by being rendered unconscious or equivalent at the time of our return. [Another possibility, seeming more likely to me this morning - Thursday 17/07/08 03:18 - given the information now available to me, is that there is a ‘Remote Assistance’ link to the Desktop on the DIXONSXP perpetrated by some wireless means, and of course improperly or I should say unusually, allowing things to be done which ordinarily would require local access to the computer, in this way remotely. Tied together with this may well be the fact that the DIXONSXP shows as having two ‘Genuine Intel® CPU 2140 @ 1.60GHz’ processors in it, and - this less clear to me, but hinted - two system hard discs this presumably meaning somehow two operating systems running in parallel, that is two computers but sharing peripherals. If it is so - the Remote Access wireless link at least - then I would have to presume Microsoft are implicated - this reconsidered below - and that The Experiment as it is now is a duly authorised investigation for all sorts of purposes including that of investigating criminal - in my view criminal - behaviour in the past by, most notoriously, Armond. Such a wireless means of interfering with shared peripherals would naturally readily permit deliberate introduction - temporarily - of faults such as in copying to an auxiliary hard disc, or to DVD. It is a means of interference I have suspected in the past but then most likely wrongly suspected. More physical evidence that the suspicion is true now of the DIXONSXP is to be found in the constant radio interference walkie-talkies - tried out nearby the DIXONSXP as part of my security - suffer.
If it is a matter basically of hardware of two computers within the DIXONSXP case, but sharing say USB-connected peripherals, it need not be the fact that Microsoft are implicated as having re-written the Windows-version operating systems. This would make sense also in that I might conceivably install a non-Windows operating system. Furthermore from the behaviour of Royal Mail in respect of my letters to Microsoft Business Solutions of Thames Valley Park in Reading - that is declining to deliver them - I would presume Microsoft are not in the know.
From notes in my Filofax for the morning of Thursday 3 April 2008 it seems a certainty I was led by hypnotic suggestion to buy the DIXONSXP desktop, a desktop size machine being required to hold the special hardware needed evidently for the investigation carried on from April onwards. I have said before that at the end of March I was advised through hypnotic voicing to make sure to back up securely anything on the computers I felt it vital not to lose. Of course after buying it - or possibly in my mind before buying it - I decided the best use for the DIXONSXP was as a dedicated machine for security, whereas it had been hoped I would do all my stuff on it and perhaps copy all my stuff from the past onto its hard disc or discs. Since then of course other computers I have had have been made to fail, or in the case of the Amilo Pro to be detained in Nottinghamshire.
The essential point to appreciate is that the effects on me of antidopamine drugs are so abominable I would do almost anything, as I have said before, to evade them. Moreover because they do such detriment to my mental processes it cannot have been appreciated just what I am capable of - in the computing line, say - when I manage not to be given them. This of course creates difficulty in that not being given them - and the authorisers must be close to understanding the torturous immorality there would be in insisting I be given them - I become free and make use of the freedom to go to places unpredictably and to fashion security arrangements very difficult to crack. Hence to try to convince me I am experiencing psychotic symptoms - in seeing a lot of motor vehicles driving about Kingswinford say, in itself a joke if supposed to be a symptom of mental illness - becomes quite laughable.]
16/07/08 05:39
Let me just note for my own convenience of information that the file PastYears.html first appeared in my website (barrass-brough.org.uk) in the version Uploaded version 080613.
What I have in mind (and I have a suspicion it is a ‘niggle’ hypnotically introduced) is there is - I believed - a file in the uploaded version of my website at 123-reg which ideally should be deleted (to save storage space for 123-reg). The file (I believed) is an HTML file called Writings.html which was a version of the page Writings from the past linked (in Uploaded version 080613) from the index page:
I detect the question here: if this matter I am pursuing (the file Writings.html, that is whether it exists and whether it needs to be deleted) is occupying my time at hypnotic behest, is there any benefit to me from having been advised hypnotically (since I do not set the advice aside and get on with something else)? The answer is the same as the answer to the equivalent question: is there any benefit to me (bearing in mind that I myself may benefit from having pleasure in helping other people) from communicating or interacting or spending time in an ordinary sort of way with other people (them not, in the ordinary way, hypnotising me)? There is benefit, as there is in activity of any nature, when one is not rendered incompetent (by drugs I mean, mainly) to learn from the experience. In this somewhat unusual case, where I am ‘allowing myself’ to be guided by hypnotic ‘advice’, I am benefiting from having these interesting reflections going through my mind (which some readers of my website may benefit from also, when these notes are put up on my website). Needless to say were my mind stilled by ASM this argument would not apply.
It may well be that the hypnotisers had in mind more the question whether I am grateful to be reminded, through hypnotic voicing, of the need to save disc space for 123-reg by deleting the file. This is not quite the way I look at it. If it had been an utterly vital matter to save disc space for them, I should have had the task in my mind more powerfully held on the to-do list. It is true there are people more forgetful than I am who might find there was something they felt they had ‘forgotten’ they needed to do, and be grateful therefore to be reminded. This question is actually very much more complex, in that ‘forgetfulness’ depends on the notion that benefit which would have been available is forgone because of a defective memory. But this is to look at things from a persuasive or even dirigiste perspective.
If somebody forgets something and suffers for it, his interest in remembering that type of thing - or things in general - is increased, from having suffered as a consequence of forgetfulness. If not, he may I suppose die from being forgetful and not learning to rectify the forgetfulness, in which case the ‘forgetful gene’ will become less prevalent. In the case of someone being reminded by another person, the supposed benefit from the reduced effect of the individual’s forgetfulness is actually common benefit: say in an army troop where the cadet soldiers are shouted at for forgetting to load up ammunition at the appropriate time. If an individual is content to live or die according to his own level of forgetfulness, then I say let him get on with it and good luck to him.
I am grateful for the voicing prompting these interesting reflections: but on the other hand had I not been indulging these reflections, what else might I have got done (opportunity cost again)?
I was remarking the other day to my imaginary hands-free, outside Morrisons Bescot: the universe is a sequence of events which take place.
I am very very happy to be free of drugs at present. I might put up some sound-bites of recent remarks I have made to my Olympus devices regarding the benefit potentially available from hanging all psychiatrists currently in existence.
16/07/08 08:38
I have had some breakfast, and I feel the effects of drugs. The only thing I have eaten not locked in a safe (with combinations I think most unlikely to be easily cracked) at the time we were taken advantage of yesterday evening has been Morrisons Black Cherry Conserve Extra jam. My understanding of things now is sufficient to know that if I go out the back (to chuck the remains of the Black Cherry Conserve over the rear fence) and certainly if I go out the front (to do my Neighbourhood Watch duty given that almost all if not literally all the families in the street have chosen to take their holidays at the same time these last days and for goodness knows how long into the future) I shall be further taken advantage of with hypnosis. I might learn more about how the hypnosis is perpetrated if I take some audio recorder devices with me (about my person) and I could cover the immediate front and rear of our bungalow with cameras if I turned them on suitably. I’ll consider what’s best to do.